


We had our second baby-doctor's appointment yesterday and met my doctor for the first time. We both really liked her. After pushing on my belly a bit, looking over my blood tests, and asking and answering some questions, she congratulated us on the fact that I'm having a "very normal" pregnancy. Very welcomed words. We did not have an ultrasound, but we did get to listen to the bun's heartbeat. This was a big relief, as I've felt so normal it's hard to believe I'm actually pregnant. I've gotten used to telling people I'm "pregnant", and used to thinking of myself as a "pregnant" person...but actually believing there is in fact a person growing inside of me seems a little too strange to be real---and somehow different from saying I'm pregnant. It's like pregnant is just my new state of being: I'm pregnant. Like I'm 5'8" or have blue eyes. These things don't have consequences, they are just facts of my life. So it's hard to wrap my brain around the idea (and reality) that in just under 6 months I won't be pregnant, but --God willing-- I will have a person to show for it. Strange. And completely wonderful and exciting, don't get me wrong, but also bizarre.
I gained 8 pounds since my last doctor visit. This proves to me that it can't just be bloating from gas.
I watched about a dozen different 3-5 minute videos online this morning dealing with labor, delivery, what happens right after and so on. I now know all about APGAR, antibiotic goop that goes into your baby's eyes right after birth, what exactly is happening when your water breaks, vitamin k shots, why baby's don't drown in water births, and that hippies appear to experience the least amount of pain during childbirth. It's convinced me to look more into their hippie ways when it comes to childbirth. From what I can tell so far, these are some of the hippie recommendations: dim lights, have husband constantly massaging your back ---um, OKAY, keep your eyes closed a lot and listen to music you like, and maybe rock back and forth on your hands and knees. And keep telling yourself, and those around you that your body was designed for this. None of that seems very extreme or out there. I'll forego the incense burning next to my bed and the summoning Mother Earth of course, substituted with some serious praying I imagine.
And does anyone have any input regarding water births? Because from where I'm sitting, that looks like the way to go. The lady I watched for the water birth video barely grunted or frowned during the two pushes it took to deliver her baby. My hospital has a jacuzzi in every room...I'm not against (at this point) delivering my first child by sea.















